Thursday, April 29, 2010

A day off!

I want to start this blog with a disclaimer.

I chose to be a mother. I enjoy being a mother. I chose to have a lot of kids and I'm glad that I have a big family. I am a stay at home mom by choice and believe that motherhood and strengthening the family is very important.

That being said, I've been in a funk. A burned out mother funk.

I hear people say that motherhood is difficult but so rewarding. Lately I've felt the difficult but not so much rewarding.

Today my husband and I had a role reversal. I had to take a certification exam for Music Therapy and attend another certification class. And although my day was full of taking tests and training-- I loved it!!

My husband took the day off and played Mr. Mom. Last night, I was excited for a day all by myself and Jason was excited to have a day at home where he could get some projects done.

I knew it was going to be a good day when I walked out the door as Jason was waking up the kids and heard Kamary say "I'm not going to school!" I just smiled knowing that, today, I didn't have to deal with it.

I drove through Phoenix during rush hour, but got there in time to have breakfast and read. Then I took the test. I passed and got a higher score than I had anticipated! It felt so good.
Being a mom-- appreciation is not high on the list of rewards and people don't jump up and down congratulating you because you folded 5 loads of laundry. When you're a mom, you have to find sucess in many different ways-- but I always seem to be plagued with self-doubt and frustration because my to do list is never ending and I go to bed thinking of all the stuff I didn't get to that day. Even when I list all that I've accomplished, the list of things I didn't accomplish is bigger.

So it felt nice to use my brain and pass my test and feel like I accomplished something.

I went to lunch at Red Lobster-- all by myself. Ahhhh. I didn't have to get anyone ready for school, I didn't have to drive anyone anywhere and I didn't have to make breakfast, lunch or snacks.

Then I went to my training meeting on Article 9, which is basically Arizona law when dealing with individuals with developmental disabilities. It was so nice sitting in the class and being the student. I've always loved to learn and prefer being the student instead of the teacher. But of course being a mom, I've had to be the teacher. And my only break is when I'm teaching music lessons (which isn't really a break because I'm still the teacher). So I did the homework, took the test and recieved my certification. I didn't have to stop any fights, send anyone to time out, listen to whining and complaining, or trying to get kids to do chores and homework.

I drove home feeling refreshed and revived.
And guess what-- when I got home, the house was messy and dinner hadn't even been thought of! But I didn't mind. I understand. I've been there.

Now, I know that some people go out more often, but I have issues with people babysitting my kids. I just don't want to burden anyone and feel guilty when I have them watch my kids. It really is my own issue because I have no problem with the babysitter (they're my good friends) and my kids are pretty well behaved. I just feel bad asking people to watch my kids. So usually I save it for necessity (going to the Dr.), but then that's not really a break and I have to get back to pick up other kids or something like that.

Today I knew Jason was watching the kids (no guilt because they are his kids too) and I had no time deadlines. I just did my stuff and actually stopped off at the store on the way home.
I don't know how Jason's day was, but mine was great!!

Now, if I had to do this everyday, it would not be so great. I did choose to stay home with my kids because that's where my heart is and that's where I want to be. But it was sure nice to have a day to myself and to feel like I've accomplished something.
Here's to getting out of my burned out mother funk!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Mama Bird

I'm so excited that I can post pictures again that I thought I'd do another one. We thought our trees were dead last summer, but after all the winter rains, when spring came... our tree filled out nicely. A mama bird decided it was a nice place to build her nest. We've been watching it for about a month now and are waiting for the eggs to hatch (we think it will be soon). It's been so fun having the Mama bird in our yard. Sometimes the daddy sits on the eggs while the mom finds food, she never strays far though.

Mama Bird on her nest


Look! I posted a picture!

After trying several pictures and trying to upload several different things to different places, we're thinking that our internet connection is really slow lately. It took forever for this one picture to upload. I know our provider is "making improvements" but I hope this isn't one of them.

Anyway, Yesterday morning when I got Brynlie out of bed, this is what I found. I have no idea how she did it!

Sunday, April 25, 2010


So after trying to upload my pictures for the past 2 hours, my frustration level is at a high. I even tried to upload my pictures on picasa web and that failed. So....

I have posted my Easter pictures on Facebook.

Sunday, April 18, 2010


I am having a problem uploading my pictures on to blogger. Has anyone else had this problem? I upload and after 20-30 min it says that the page cannot be displayed. It doesn't matter how many pictures I've uploaded (one through five) it won't do it. And it's just from my camera like I've always done.

Does anyone know what I can do?

Otherwise my posts are going to get very boring!

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Scroll Down

I've posted several times today so make sure you scroll down.
For some reason, my Easter pics wouldn't upload so I'll try to post them later.


I woke up one morning and this is what I found.

So much for giving them nice comfortable beds!

Good Friday

The kids got Good Friday off of school and Jason only had 1/2 day of work so we all headed to the zoo. The weather was perfect!
Playing at the splashpad!

Let's go see some animals!

The wildest animals of all!

Spring is in full bloom!

We had a good time!


Spring soccer has begun!

This season, Kohler and Alyssa wanted to play.

Kohler doesn't have a competitive bone in his body! He is so easy going.

Getting ready for the game
Here is the action!

Kohler's getting there- eventually

Lauren watching the game

Go #2!

For some reason, Alyssa's coach always plays her as a defender. She waits for the ball to come her way and gets pretty distracted.

Waiting for the ball

This is a common posistion

Alyssa! Get the ball!!

She likes being on a team and is a great runner!

Little Red Writing Hood

Kamary's school class did a play called "Little Red Writing Hood". It's about Red Riding Hood who changed all of the fairy tales, giving Miss Muffet a prince, turning Goldilocks into a bear and more. Pretty soon everything was messed up and the FBI (Fairy-tale Believers Incorporated) had to come and set everything straight.

Kamary had the lead role of Red. She was sooo excited! She had all her lines learned the first day she got the script (and she had the most lines). On the day of the performance, she woke me up telling me it was time to get ready for school! That never happens.

She did a great job and was quite an actress!

The Cast

Red & Goldilocks

Changing the fairy tales

Trying to get things straight

The one and only-- Red!

More Pics

I've tried several times to upload more pictures of my kids and for some reason it isn't working. So I uploaded them to facebook! Take a look- they turned out so cute!

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Here are some fun pictures my friend just took.



I'll post more later.